I wasn't planning on running last night. But I was upset about missing my boyfriend, and missing my friends that I just got into my running clothes at 9pm and headed out the door. I ran out in the streets, because I really don't want to be in the park alone when it's dark. The streets make me feel safer, and my phone actually has a signal most of the time.
The run went okay, it relieved me off some stress and anger. It's a really good way of venting, blowing off steam.
This weekend was the yearly get-together of my old friends from the Everquest days. Nowadays we play World of Warcraft together occasionaly. But I've known most of the years for 6+ years. They are the reason I first visited the US. They are the reason I met the love of my life. This was the first time I wasn't able to make it.
I was heartbroken that I couldn't be with my best friends, the silly group of people that miraculously have so much in common and somehow met completely at random. I miss them, I love them!
As it says in my profile, I'm a dutch girl in love with an american man. We only see each other twice a year, if we are lucky. We've been together for over two years. It's hard. Most of the time I'm okay, we talk on Skype daily. But some days I get so aggravated and frustrated that we just can't be together physically.
I want to move to him, but US immigration -sighs- Yeah. Basically we have to get married and we both don't want to do that until we are absolutely ready for it. Or I'd have to find a job, which is not happening either because I lack experience and no one will even interview me (I apply a lot). Work visas are rare and nowadays pretty hard to get for even big companies.
I'm sorry for writing all this in my running/health blog, but then this is my journal and my mental health is a very important part to getting fit. For me I'd even say it's one of the most important parts, since it's one of my biggest burdens.
September 16, 2008
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3 shout-outs:
First of all congratulations on finishing week 8 :)
I know how you feel with having a partner in a different country -- mine is still back in England and work means we only get to see each other once every couple of months, not nearly so difficult as an intercontinental relationship, but frustrating nonetheless!
Nobody knows what the future holds and it sounds like you're doing all the right things to get where you want to be, so I wish you all the best and am sure you'll find your way to feeling settled sooner or later...
...although why you'd want to leave the sunny Lowlands is beyond me :)
Daisy,
I understand your plight to some degree, too. My (now) husband and I were in a similar situation when we met. We were in the same country at the time, but far enough away that we rarely saw each other. Also, there was no Skype or other online verbal program, so we spent endless hours typing "talk" messages to each other from school computer labs.
My husband is from Germany, so we had to do the whole immigration thing, but we were lucky in that we were ready to get married fairly early, before his student visa ran out. It's been 12 years now since we "tied the knot".
Anyway, I know how gut wrenching it can be being separated like that. I'm glad to see running helping with it.
Thanks, it always feels good to know others went through the same thing succesfully. I really needed to vent and find out two of my running-blog-buddies went through the same thing, wow. We must be special bunch ;)
No matter if it's only 100 miles or a few thousand it hurts either way.
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